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"I used to think as I looked out on the Hollywood night, 'There must be thousands of girls sitting alone like me dreaming of being a movie star.' But I'm not going to worry about them. I'm dreaming the hardest " Marlyn Monroe
Sometimes when I am all alone and have had a tough day. A lot of stress , a lot of thought about the future , a lot of thoughts about why this stop sign is stopping me for taking the next step . Sometimes the stop sign is right in front of me and behind it I can see what I could be and what I could have. If I just figure out how to pass by the stop sign . Someday's I work so hard and don't really see a progress at all . I haven't moved the stop sign at all . And when I finally get some alone time I start to think . Is my hard work paying of ? are the early mornings at the gym worth it ? is the struggle about money really worth it . Is the sweat dripping from by body every day worth it ? is every email I send out worth it ? Is living in this beautiful country worth it ? Is the false people I met worth it ? IS ANYTHING OF WHATS GOING ON IN MY LIFE WORTH IT !?
I know I wouldn't want to be anything else than a pro dancer . To be in a company , to have a dance family and share my passion . Everything is worth it for that.
Someday's you just have these question , actually every day . Its nothing wrong with question yourself . Its pretty normal . We are humans and we all question our choices in life . Just because you ask yourself if its worth it doesn't mean that you dont want it . Because I know what I want and dream about . But there is different ways to reach it . So i just question myself everyday so I will keep on track and get more motivated . To find new ways and roads to where I want to see me in a couple of years . Because my dream wont be happening tomorrow . I know I have a further road than that . I will met people who will help me and I will meet people who will distract me . I need to have a plan a and a plan b . But both plan a and b is getting me to my goals .
In the end of the day , no matter how tired I am , no matter what I gone through , no matter how hungry I am . I know its WORTH IT ! and those who tell you that I am spending to much time and energy on my dancing , doesn't really know me . Because I dream big and I big hardest . And if that requires that I need to go to the gym every morning , that I need to spend times on my email sending out 1000 emails , that I stretching every day etc.. than that is what I need to do . And that stop sign who is right in front of me for the moment will disappear someday . Not today , maybe not tomorrow , but I will pass that stop sign . Because I dare to dream hard and I dare to go through moments in life that is not to comfortable .